Day 2 and I'm starting to feel a little more normal. It's kind of funny what I'm remembering in my head that I have to extract myself from. I just finished pouring through my work Facebook profile and updating who has admin privileges for groups, etc. Totally forgot to do that before I left. Lots of people have been asking me about how I feel about letting go of "my baby," or what I built at *PL over the last six or so years... I can honestly say I feel really good about it. It's in a great place and there's great people picking up the reins and I am excited to see where it goes from here. I think the part that's been the most difficult so far is how weird it is to no longer be involved. I'm having these weird instances of panic because it occurs to me that I'm supposed to be doing something... like writing someone back regarding a request or to answer a question, or that I'm behind on program planning. These are all things that I should be doing right now in early September but I'm not because it's not my job to do that anymore. Yep - that's the weirdest part.
Going through this whole process of changing from one job to another, from one library to another, from one community to a brand new community has really made me realize how important work is to me--for good or bad. Good, because it gives me purpose and direction and I find work satisfying, but bad because I can be very easily sucked in to having work be 100% of what I care about most, and that's a dangerous slope for me to be teetering along on. My work is important, but one of the reasons M. and I decided to take the leap and leave here is to re-evaluate our lives and what we were doing with them. Things weren't what we wanted and we weren't necessarily where we wanted to be, so we decided to make this gigantic change. It'll be interesting to see how it turns out.
Well, we have another viewing this afternoon and I am excited about it. Time to go get some pants on and zip around the place putting things away and decluttering some more. Hugs and kisses.
A.
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